to easeful days: new beginnings

photo from: @taylortippett

it's been a minute since i've written anything remotely public - since 2015, now that i think of it. i've been toying with the idea of re-entering the blogging world for a few years now and i seem to talk myself out of it every time. the cycle of self-doubt convinced me that i have nothing to add to a community that seems to fill so much space. whatever i published wouldn't be interesting enough, eye-catching enough, trendy enough, to reach anyone. but i think it's time that - instead of giving in to the insecurities and the hesitancies - that i let myself try, and maybe fail, again.

one of the mistakes i made the last time i tried my hand at this was confining myself to only publishing about one thing. i confined myself to only one type of writing and, when that writing no longer came naturally to me, i let all of the hard work i'd put into my blog fall to the wayside. hopefully one of the benefits of a more neutral domain name means i can dabble in as many things as i find interesting: books, tv shows, sustainability, ethical fashion, low-waste living, cooking, poetry, podcasts, mental health and trauma recovery, etc.

naturally, i'm nervous to put myself back out there in fear of being judged by the internet - or worse, by people i know. i don't want to come off as pretentious. i especially don't want others thinking that i place such value on my voice that i feel this dire need to make my thoughts known, because that's not the case. but i think it's gotten to the point now where if i don't try, if i don't take this leap of faith, i never will.

so, with all that said and done, here's trying and letting myself potentially fail. here's to pushing myself to write and delve deeper into the things that bring me joy. and, above all, here's to new beginnings.

- a.